Like the Tree

- originally titled On Staten Island, played on WNYC Radio April 2024


You ask

You ask if something’s on your back.

I ask, Where?

You lean forward, lift your shirt:

no bruise, no burn, no cut, and yet you ache.

Pain loves to play games about

where it resides.

I touch the field of flesh

dotted with moles to the right of your spine,

use fingers as eyes.

Here, where the doctor examined you? I ask.

But the doctor did not really look, you say.

I bite my tongue.

I saw him study your back,

saw him cup the tender curve

as he would some fragile fruit.

Now it’s my leg, you say.

Shall I massage it, I ask,

the back of your thigh?

You pick up your book, turn away.

I’m hurt but not hurt.

How could I?

As of this month you’ve faced

two thousand days of pain.

You rage. I rage.

I rise each morning, open the blinds,

pray your cramps diminish,

and the six apricots still on the sill

ripen without delay.

the Examined Life Spring 2014


Weatherboy

He could tell what sort of day it would be:

“Snow,” “Sun,” even “Clouds, no rain,”

by inhalation, it seemed.

Tweed cap pushed back,

yellow barn jacket buttoned to the throat,

he gazed beyond any solid object.

“How?” I asked.

“You can see it! Look at the vibration of

blue particles in the air.”

I could no sooner see

than scoop a handful of moon to my lips

or taste the sky. 

“Sultry summer,”

my husband lamented every august afternoon,

but he spoke of recent history

whereas our boy sang of what would come to pass.

I so relied on his facility for forecast that I forgot

what not knowing was like, how cold a day could be. 

When my son had surpassed my height,

he asked me what the day might bring.

“But, my darling, I have no skill for augury.”

“Look,” he said,at the air you don’t breathe.”

One afternoon in stocking feet,

he ambled down the walk

and shimmied up to his old perch in the tree.

“Do you see it now?” I called from the front porch.

“I honestly no longer know how, Mom.

It was a gift. We used it up,” he said

and skittered up three more branches.

“You try,” he sang. “It’s also in the breath you exhale.”

And as I gazed into space,

he climbed higher again, another two branches,

and flew away.